I laced up my running shoes and I ran until my legs grew weary. Then I sat in mediation and prayer and where the physical release had cleared some space, I filled it with God's Grace. Desperately needed, I lapped it up thirsty and grateful. I let it fill all the spaces until it poured out of me like sweat from my pores.
Because children are being brutally murdered for loving the same Lord that I love. Because Robin Williams is dead, strangled by the darkness. Because my dear friend is lying in surgery as we speak to remove the cancer that has attacked her precious body. Because the clot of blood locked in my mother's leg has her down for days. Because young moms sobbed while their babies went off to school today. Because my friend isn't getting her boy from Uganda like she had planned. Because while growing another precious child in the womb, my friend will always mourn the loss of the one that came and went far too soon. Because relationships lie in pieces at my feet. Because people who once loved me are disappointed in me. Because the brokenness will never really end.
And in the midst of brokenness, I knew I had to take the time to seek the Grace, the ever-loving Grace. The Grace that fills the cracks and doesn't ask who caused them. The Grace that knows the pain and knows the ache and acts as a salve to heal. The Grace that is available to all who seek it.
And I open the windows and let the breeze blow through my house, my heart, my mind. And I am reminded that I am love, I am loved, I am forgiven, I am given grace. Sweet, sweet, grace.
I will move through today with a peace and a knowing and a grateful heart. Grateful to openly praise and pray and love.
So I’m breathing in Your grace
And breathing out Your praise
Matt Redmon lyrics